Hello. Yes, I am in fact still here, I just needed a little bit of a break. I won't promise new things even every week from now on, just here and there, and we'll see how it goes and how I have inspiration to write here. But, I did make a decision about book hauls just the other day, and I want to share that decision.
Book hauls. Oh, the book hauls. You buy books, you tell people about the books. You haven't read most, if any, of the books, but you still talk or write about them. Or maybe you just show a picture of the books you got. You tell how 'excited you are about them.' How 'pretty they will look on your shelves.' And then you forget. And buy more. And the pile of unread books on your shelf just grows and grows, until one day you decide to go through the books and decide which you want to get rid of because you don't think you'll ever read some of them.
I don't want to end up like that. I don't want to have a hundred books that I haven't read yet on my shelf, collecting dust, sad and so full of potential but forgotten. I want to be excited about the books I read, and I want to have read all of my books. Book hauls, for me, have the potential to become something I feel like I have to do, that I have to buy books to show that I have bought books, and that scares me a little, to be honest. I want to be a person who only buys books when they have read the previous ones they bought, if not all then at leas almost. With the exception of sequels, I think.
I discovered booktube on Youtube last year. And while I started maybe buying more books, I also started reading more books because of it. And both of those numbers have gone up this year, but as long as I don't buy more than I read, I'm happy. I have tried to use common sense - not to imply that booktubers don't have that - and only buy books I really want to read, books that I will continue to be excited about, books that even if it takes me two years to get to them, I'll be excited to read them.
So, I won't be doing book hauls anymore. I don't want to make it seem like one has to buy a lot of books. I don't want others to think like that, but most of all I don't want myself to think like that. I want to focus more on writing about the books I have read, and have something to say about. Because that's why I started this blog, to write about the books I read. Not to show how many books I bought. It just took me a little while to realize that.
